“If you took away music, I wouldn’t have a reason to live.”
These are some of the many raw and honest things that Demi Lovato said during the MTV Stay Strong special interview last night. She even opened up candidly that she has fallen victim and indulged again in those eating disorder patterns even after the treatment. She opened up about all that more this Tuesday.
“I cannot tell you that I have not thrown up since treatment. I cannot tell you that I have not cut myself since treatment. I’m not perfect,” the 19-year-old said.
Demi Lovato was also diagnosed with bipolar disorder and says that it is a difficult ongoing battle that she fights every day. She says that the negativity was there in her from just the age of 7 and she explained that she sometimes “looked in the mirror and never felt good enough.”
“I felt like I was living a lie…I was dealing with all this pain, emotionally. And I felt guilt and shame. I decided to take it out on myself. I harmed myself.”
The teenager even opened up that during Thanksgiving she had to be with her sponsor on the phone to fight her urge to purge or throw up all the food and she said that although she made it through, she felt extremely guilty. Luckily, Lovato has found solace with music and the Lovatics.
“An addiction is an obsession, something that takes over your mind and your every thought. You think that you can’t live without it. For me, it was not eating and purging and self-harming. Every time someone asks me for a picture or an autograph, even if I’m having a bad day, I remember, ‘You’re nothing without this person.’ They make it special and give me strength.”
This is a highly unusual celebrity interview that I have ever witnessed and to see such candor and openness in front of millions is a strength most of the girls her age do not have. I salute her for her courage and wish only the best and happiness for this teenage sensation in life.